我不堅強

今天沒有人陪我說話
今天大家都有約了
今天天氣好好

每當一個人時,
總愛來這裡,
想用這種方式來填補裡面的空虛感

對著電腦熒幕說心裡的話
好像真的好淒涼
手好冰,心好冷

這是某種說不出的脆弱

那感覺很錯

要怎樣才能守住那顆心呢?

我真的好怕,

好怕再變回那個自己

那個冷血,無情,傷害人

做壞事不內疚,

打人不手軟

毫不在乎,什麼都不管的人

感覺那個我又要回來了

是誰在激我?

是什麼在敲醒它?

它要回來了,我要守住我的心

不要再被惡勢力給奪去

絕對不行

生日好幸福

今年的生日真的好開心
很簡單,很平凡,
這就是我要的

在這一天裡,能夠得到家人朋友的祝福
真的入夢也在笑

讓我這個快凋謝的靈魂
感受到你們的愛
真的很幸福哦

真想你們都能陪我走下去

謝謝你們唱歌給我聽

日生

好像又到了那個日子
那一天,會覺得特別開心

不愛慶生,不收禮物,不吃蛋糕
不吃大餐,只收祝福,甜在心底

好像已經很久沒許生日願望了
不知道能不能在今年用完

想我的家人能愛我多一點
朋友不要再先離開我
身邊不要有那種為了利益的人
能夠別為小事而傷心
能夠找到一個能託付終身的那個人

沈倩雯,生日蒙恩
感謝神帶我走過這麼多年
依然對我不離不棄,
讓我跨過死因誘惑
Thanks God :D

平凡真幸福

我也許在你們身旁是個微不足道的小人物
很容易被遺忘的那種
也可能只有被需要時才記得的人

但我沒有覺得這樣平凡不好
可能有時候真的很難過
為什麼都是他們先離開我
我卻不是那個先離開他們的人

有人說,好朋友不要天天黏在一起
久久見一次面,感情更密切
我倒不這麼覺得,
為什麼一定要久久見一次
天天膩在一起,感覺也很好啊

亂哈喇,瞎聊天
總比那些找不到人來聊的人更幸福
不是嗎?

天下無不散之宴席
被遺忘也看得開了

只要心裡還存著不甘心
就沒有放棄的意思

哈,我說啊,我的朋友寂寞時
反鎖電話來查詢,
還是會記得我
還是會打給我的
感覺這樣就很幸福啦

我覺得我這個角色
做得不賴哦,
能做人家的垃圾桶
有點感動 :D

Loneliness

I don't know what to do,
to kick this loneliness out of my heart.

The night, I dance the loneliness in this empty room.
With the lullaby of Bossanova.
It's killing me inside, deeply.

I always ask my friend,
why being so lonely? Like everyone is leaving..
Why I can tell them not to go this way,
but still I can't get over it.

This is the first time, the feeling is too strong inside out.
I keep asking, why can't I break this?
What's wrong with me? Oh god.
Help me, I still want to walk on this street.
Not gonna let this loneliness take my heart away.

Suck those temporary friends.

當我想把心交出來時
你們就狠狠把它弄碎

哼~了不起
不會有下次
也不用我給予任何求助

朋友做到這樣,我得到的還是失望
隨便吧,友誼建立不起信任
這樣繼續下去又有什麼意義

封閉後就不要再叫我敞開
INSANE.

那場噩夢

昨晚我做了一場很糟的夢
我很怕 所以我逼自己醒來

在黑暗的早晨
沸騰，求助

有誰的肩膀願意借我
誰的心會理解

已經不知道這種近況延續了多久
每晚做噩夢
每天在操心

為著甚麼而忙忙碌碌
很糟糕 很難過

就是找不到一個人來訴說

那個爛人!!

你不要太過分
你不是我父親,
你根本就沒資格好嗎?

我知道這段婚姻如果沒有我的存在,
就不會有開始,
抱歉,我是那個包囊!

請你不要濫用你的權柄來管教人
我們不是你買回來的小狗
我們不會在你面前搖尾巴謝謝!
我不會為你而生活,
你說的話,我只有順服,絕沒有順從的意思

因為你都不說,你沒教,你要承擔的是這個代價
你不會當父親,你真的很失敗
我真的太失望了,我真的不懂要怎麼走下去

對不起,你可以罵我不孝
但也請你看看你自己
只會說人,恨死你

Him.

Him.

You guys randomly start talking one day. He compliments you and tells you you’re pretty and cute. He asks you about your past relationships and you ask him about his.

When you tell him you’ve been hurt multiple times, he tells you that those guys are all jerks and stupid for letting a girl like you go.

You then share tell him come more stories about your past and he tells you his. He starts flirting with you and you start flirting back.

Then he asks for your number and you give it to him right away. The next day he texts you and tells you good morning and tells you to have a good day.

Soon talking to him becomes a part of your daily routine and you wait for him every day to text you.  Whenever you receive something from him, you start smiling  and your day instantly becomes better.

He texts you daily asking how your day went. You talk to him all night and he always ask if you are tired and if you want to go to bed.

The night conversations you have with him are always the best and the deepest. You sleep when he sleeps and he sleeps when you sleep.

Now he wants to meet up and hang out with you. When you meet up with him, you feel even more chemistry with him and you feel butterflies in your stomach every time you talk to him.

Now you tell your friends about what an amazing guy he is and you are interested in him. Soon he confesses that he is interested in you and you tell him that the feeling is mutual.

You go on more dates with him and he starts giving you nicknames and calling you baby. You feel like you’re the happiest girl alive and the feeling is strong between you guys.

One day, he suddenly stops texting you first. When you guys talk now, it’s only because you hit him up first. Things changed and you don’t understand what unexpectedly happened.

He stops putting effort talking to you and doesn’t show that he still wants to be with you. You become extremely clingy and you don’t want another girl in the picture.

You can’t help wondering what went wrong. You ask him if anything is wrong and he tells you that everything is fine. Then you start thinking he’s mad at you for something you did, but he assures you that you need to relax and everything’s okay.

He tells you that he’s just been busy. So you wait for a while and nothing is changing. He’s still ‘busy’ all the time and he doesn’t even try to talk to you.

Now every time you talk to him it becomes an argument. And you get scared that you are being annoying by hitting him up first, so you stop talking to him.

Months pass, and you don’t talk to him at all. You never know what happened from his point of view. Because of him, every day and night you’re hurt and upset.

You don’t know what went wrong in the relationship between you two. Your friends tell you to forget him and that he doesn’t deserve someone like you.

You miss the old person he used to be and you don’t even know what he has changed into. And one day you see that he has new girl in his life. He’s calling her cute names and telling her everything he used to tell you.

He called her baby and tells her he thinks she’s gorgeous. He tells her everything you’ve heard before. He seems completely fine without you and now he has someone else to talk and text every day and night.

You refuse to believe that he played you, but it’s true. You’re still hurt and he has already moved on. You’re still sad and everything you do reminds you of him.

You can’t stop thinking about him and you cry every night thinking of him. You still secretly hope that one day he will start talking to you again and you guy will pick up where you last left off but you also know that it will never ever happen.

You compare every guy you now meet him. He’s already forgotten about you but you’re still having a hard time letting go. Sound familiar?